Heart of Gratitude

Soooo... It's been a long tiring week but I really need to blog!! :)
First off.. I'm finally legal 18!!! YAY!! Haha. Really so grateful for the people that God has placed in my life. Never would I have imagined that I would have people fighting to be the first one to wish me happy birthday. Really very touched. :')
So thank you to Diana and ZhenWei for calling me the moment the clock striked 12. <3 And sorry I couldn't pick up all calls at once. :(
Thank you to JiaJia for wishing me 4 times: through a phone call, through Whatsapp, through Twitter and through Facebook. Love you! <3
Thank you to Sarah for not being too mainstream. Hehe. Your wish really made me want to cry. Feeling so loved! <3
Thank you to Uma who really wanted to be the first to wish me. It really doesn't matter that you weren't first. Loved it just the same. <3
And if I had to say thank you to every single one, I would be writing a very very long post today. But what I really want to say is that I was really touched by the wishes and the messages and the presents. I really didn't expect so much. :')
Biggest thank you goes to God for giving me the chance to impact the people around me. :)
So enough of the birthday post. :)
Moving on to the rest of the week...
This week has been a hectic week due to the looming assignment deadlines. :( had to chiong for my assignment today when my lappy decided it'll be fun to drive me up the wall by not functioning properly. Just when I was about to finish my assignment too. :'((( ended up handing it in late. :( oh well..
Besides that, the Stompers (we haven't come up with a better name yet) have been busy practising all week for RetroMania. Lots and lots of changes have been made throughout the week. Praying for a successful performance!
Despite my busy busy week, I'm super glad that I had time to go for a short shopping trip and dinner with Sarah today!! :) Yay!! *happy dance* It really feels like it has been a very very long time and I'm glad that we had an opportunity to catch up! :) Reminded once again why we're good friends! Can click! *thumbs up* Oh. And she was such a sweetie! Bought me Chewy Junior. Yum! :)
And finally, Jia when you read this.. Congrats!! You have finally finished your exams!!! Go get a well deserved break!! :) time to relax!! :) <3

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Things I Didn't Know About Me That You Probably Wouldn't Care About

After so many years of living with myself, it's kinda hard to believe that I'm still learning about myself. Or maybe I knew that this is how am all along but I never knew how to verbalise it. Whatever it is, I've been learning new things about myself.
#1 I don't really open up to people as easily as I thought I do. Maybe it's ego, maybe it's pride, but if a close friend doesn't ask what's wrong, I would keep everything to myself. If I had a problem, I'll try to solve it myself rather than asking for help. I guess it really is an ego problem.
#2 I really do care what people think about me. According to Tik, I don't seem to care what people think. But really I do. Don't know why. Just do. It's been this way since as far back as I remember. I remember being 6 and wondering what people will think if I wore that.
#3 I don't trust easily. But if I'm willing to go crazy in front of you and show you the real me (be it downright bitchy on bad days [sorry], super whiney on tired days, or crazy happy when everything's going amazing. The good, the bad and the ugly.), I really trust you. I only let my guard down when I trust. People tend to think differently of me once they know me better. But the thing is, if I trust you, why pretend to be someone else?
#4 Once I start caring, I love you. And when I love you, I'll do anything to make you happy. Even of it means making myself do stupid stuffs to brighten up your day. Or travelling in the opposite direction just to get you something you're craving. Haha. I know people think I'm crazy and some people do say "Wah. You got so much money ah?" But really, if it makes you happy, why not? Money is temporal anyways. You don't bring it with you when you're born, you don't take it with you when you're gone. If I can afford to, why not.
#5 I tend to stinge on myself and splurge on others. I tend to be less hesitant about getting something for someone compared to getting something for myself. If you've gone shopping with me before, you'll probably understand. I can stand down there for 30 mins debating in whether to get something and then walking away saying "I probably don't need that" (unless it's nail polish!! OMGOSH!!!). When getting something for someone else however, I'm like "will he/she like it? Yes? Ok get it." I guess cos seeing people happy makes me happy.
#6 I'm easily affected by other people's mood. I tend to be happier when the people around me are happy and sad when they're send. It's like I can feel the same feelings in me. It's weird I know but that's how I am. Mummy says I care too much. I just think I detect vibes too easily.
#7 I have an inevitable fear of being left out. I know most people will think I'm being stupid. But after going through those growing up years that I never wish to re-live. I constantly worry about it even when everything's going well at what point of time. It sucks. But yea.
#8 I'm quite sentimental. I tend to keep stuffs that are given by people who matter or stuffs that mean a lot to me. For example, soft toys aren't really my thing. I will not purposefully go hunting for soft toys or have it on my wishlist of presents. BUT if they're from people who matter... ThatSoftToy'sGonnaBeSittingOnMyBed. Haha. For real. I have them lined up. If you've been to my room, you'll know.
#9 Eventhough I fight with my brother like [CRAZY!] *insert cats fighting sound effect*, I love him a lot!! So glad that we're slowly out-growing the cats and dogs phase of siblinghood. We talk abit more to each other and try to fight less. Well sometimes. Haha. But we're getting there. And I'm glad. Cos who better to camwhore with than your own baby brother! :D

Do we look alike? Haha,

#10 My motto in life: Let no one ever come to you without leaving better and happier. ~Mother Teresa
Simply because I feel that if you can't make a difference where you're at, what's the point of being there? I wanna be able to walk away from a place or situation and have people say "WOW. Something's missing."

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Mother-Daughter Ties <3

When God is involved, anything can happen. Just trust Him, for He has a beautiful way of bringing good music out of broken chords.

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I really LOVE talking to mummy. I love how she's always on the same wavelength as me. I love how I don't have to say much and she just understands. I love how she doesn't just read into my words, she reads into the tone I uses as well. Apparently when I talk about "certain people", I have a different tone. Haha. Oh mummy. Funny how you always know what I think just by reading into my tone. I love you so so much! Really blessed to have you as my mummy. <3

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